how could i,if you dont let me.

faith

Confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing. Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence. Loyalty to a person or thing; allegiance: keeping faith with one's supporters. often Faith Christianity The theological virtue defined as secure belief in God and a trusting acceptance of God's will. The body of dogma of a religion: the Muslim faith. A set of principles or beliefs. hope To wish for something with expectation of its fulfillment. Archaic To have confidence; trust. To look forward to with confidence or expectation: We hope that our children will be successful. To expect and desire. A wish or desire accompanied by confident expectation of its fulfillment. Something that is hoped for or desired: Success is our hope. One that is a source of or reason for hope: the team's only hope for victory. often Hope Christianity The theological virtue defined as the desire and search for a future good, difficult but not impossible to attain with God's help. Archaic Trust; confidence. be⋅lieve 1. to have confidence in the truth, the existence, or the reliability of something, although without absolute proof that one is right in doing so: Only if one believes in something can one act purposefully. 2. to have confidence or faith in the truth of (a positive assertion, story, etc.); give credence to. 3. to have confidence in the assertions of (a person). 4. to have a conviction that (a person or thing) is, has been, or will be engaged in a given action or involved in a given situation: The fugitive is believed to be headed for the Mexican border. 5. to suppose or assume; understand (usually fol. by a noun clause): I believe that he has left town. 6. believe in, a. to be persuaded of the truth or existence of: to believe in Zoroastrianism; to believe in ghosts. b. to have faith in the reliability, honesty, benevolence, etc., of: I can help only if you believe in me.

Taking hold, breaking in
The pressures on, need to circulate
Memorized and taken in
Take it slow, so it resonates
It's time to rest, not to sleep away
My thoughts alone, try to complicate
I'll do my best, to seek you out
And be myself and not impersonate

Chorus:
I tried so hard to not walk away
And when things don't go my way
I still carry on and on just the same
I've always been strong
i cant make this happen
'Cause I need to breathe
I want to breathe you in
The fear of becoming,
I'm so tired of running
'Cause I need to breathe

I want to breathe you in
I want to breathe you in

I'm going in, so cover me
Your compass will, help me turn the page
The laughing stalk, I'll never be
Because I wont let them take me

[Chorus]

Took awhile to see, all the love that's around me
Through the highs and lows, there's' that truth that I know
And it's you

Yeahh, and I
I've always been strong
But cant make this happen
'Cause I need to breathe
I want to breathe you in
The fear of becoming
I'm so tired of runnin
'Cause I need to breathe
I want to breathe you in[x4]
I want to, I want to
I want to breathe you in[x2]
I want to breathe
I want to, I want to
I want to breathe(I want to, I want to)
I want to breathe you in[x2]
I want to breathe

Song : Beautiful Letdown
By : Switchfoot



It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone
Unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do

In a world full of bitter pain
And bitter doubts
I was trying so hard to fit in
Fit in, until I found out

I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I will carry a cross and a song
Where I don't belong
I don't belong

It was a beautiful letdown
When You found me here
Yeah, for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free

We're still chasing our tails
In the rising sun
In our dark water planet still spinning
In a direction no one wins
No one's won.

See, I don't belong here (I don't belong)
Well, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I will carry a cross
With a song where I don't belong
I don't belong
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
No, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I'm gonna set side
And set sail
For the kingdom come, kingdom come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down, yeah
Let my foolish pride forever let me down

Ah, Easy living, you're not much like the name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Would you please take me off your list
Easy living please c'mon and let me down

We are a beautiful letdown
Painfully uncool
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures, and the fools
What a beautiful letdown
Are we salt in the wound
Hey, let us sing one true tune

I don't belong here (I don't belong)
It feels like I don't belong here, yeah
It goes like I don't belong here
I don't belong (I don't belong)
Won't you let me down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
You always let me down (I don't belong)
So glad that I'm let down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
'Cause I don't belong here
Won't you let me down!

A night that he stared at perfection.

It was drizzling that night."Well I hope it doesn't get worse later.I got plans,please!" he told himself as he was on his way to pick up his friend for a drink. He and his friend talked about scandals among their batch,yeah time flew.Without realizing clock now shows 1130, he was late for his plans.He tried to recall the directions that his friend gave in order to reach the destination for the night.He drove there as fast as possible but yet maintain at a safe speed.So as he hesitated each turnings he made,and finally he reached the house.It matches the description that his friend gave earlier on."Come on,pick up the phone!" But yet no one answered the phone.Not long after he heard the familiar ringtone,he answered and heard the all needed information. "Go down now,you're good to go." He quickly went down,ignoring the drizzling rain and stood at the front gate.Approaching were two,one a lady-like and one was awkwardly standing there right beside,opening the door. "hmm,should i yell hi auntie?what if she was her sister?" *gulp*

As she walks her way towards him and finally stopped at a respectful distance in between both of them.

"Come on now,say something.SAY SOMETHING!!!ANYTHING!!"

*moment of what people usually describe as butterfly in his stomach*

"Err hi,happy birthday" he said,handing the box to the girl and noticed that the lady still staring at him.Even a blind man can tell that he was very nervous and shy.And a couple of sentences afterwards he ended the conversation and slowly walked away.The staring from the lady was too much for him.


i shall continue this story next time.lack of inspiration. ;)

and i thought i found my new addiction.If there were 3,count them 2 now.I cant and i wont understand.I actually kept a tiny place for hope, faith or watever u call it these days despite agreeing with Leon that this world is a rotten place.


In the end,hope indeed is just a hoax,so forget everything you've heard.

Hmm..maybe not.

Lunch @ Solaris Mont Kiara.During lunch hour,they have this special offer for lunch sets. Cheaper : ) . I really wanted to you the prices of the food but then if i snap more pics,it's gay.


When i was leaving Boston,there's bunch of ppl downstairs filiming a movie or music video.I see no chinese,so i assume it's a malay movie. ( :
2 days or 3 days earlier,the news came out about a 22 year old passed away due to a fire in his unit right?This the place,which is very near to Solaris.In case you were wondering,no i couldnt have noticed,it was quite far away from my condo.Well it's kinda obviously that black stained in the pic.According to my sis,the condo beside that Bayu could see the whole process.omg -.- So i'm glad that my sis's unit is on 1st floor,jumping down wouldnt be a problem.


Dinner came early today,we went back to Solaris for korean food.Well,those guys ain't done with the filming yet.The pic couldnt see that clearly : ( but then i can confirm you guys that it's a malay movie.If see any wkx 9008 in a malay movie,that's me in the car. Lol.

Satisfying my hunger with korean food,it's one of the best way to do so.



I gotta feeling,that tonight's gonna be a good night,
that tonight's gonna be a good night
that tonight's gonna be a good,good night.


Hmm..maybe not.

Saja want let my friends see how's my hair now.yes it's growing and growing by each day.Soon i'll be just another emo freak yet again.

sorry for the sleepy look,it was 630 in the morning.

And i went to this place for dinner.

Leon and I had a talk.Ya man,occasionally Leon and I will have some emo talks of our own.Don't jealous cuz i got a friend to emo with.Constant reality checks,reminding ourselves of how this world is full of unjust.

I found my new addiction. ( :

randomness

"cause i'm hanging on every word you say and,
even if you dont want to speak speak tonight,it's alright,alright with me,
cause i got nothing more than,to sit outside heaven's door,
and listen to you breathing,is where i want to be,yeah."

"hey there delilah,what's it like in new york city
i'm a thousand miles away
but girl u look so pretty,yes you do
times square cant shine as bright as you,i swear it's true."

"light up,light up
as if you have a choice
even if you cannot hear my voice
i'll be right beside you dear."

"off in the night,while u live it up,i'm off to sleep
waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
i hope it's gonna make u notice
i hope it's gonna make u notice
someone like me."

"even the best falls down sometimes
even the wrong words seems to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills your mind
you finally found you and i collide."

"how do you feel?that is the question
but i forget you dont expect an easy answer
when something like a soul initialized
and folded up like paperdolls and little notes
you can't expect for a bit of hope"

"i think i need sunrise
i'm tired of sunsets
i hear it's nice in the summer
some snow would be nice,oh yeah."


Find out all which stanza belongs to which song,then you'll win.ok this is dumb.haha. this for the sake of updating my blog. awww nice weather to sleep.night.

Facts and a fan.

Many of you might not know,i like to play football.Ha!This is a joke right?Close friends of mine should know football is my passion.

It all started when i was 9 i think.That's when Clement and I stopped playing hide and seek.We seek greater fun.Something that you need to sweat in order to win.We discovered,a game where u need determination,passion,hard work and whole lot of talent(Well some might argue determination and hard work will compensate talent?).We found football.

At first,we don't understand the game.How did they kicked the ball so high up yet seem controlled?How did they kicked the ball so hard and yet there's accuracy?Well Clement seem to give up on the game,me?No!I continue to play as Clement continue to be obsessed with his bike.Everyday,never fail,i turned up at the park for football.Those malays were kind enough not to mind that the fact that i'm a chinese.I can seriously tell that they didnt mind that i'm chinese,and thought me all i should know about football.

For starters,i should use side of the foot to pass instead of the front,using toe.When u wanna shoot u can either shoot with ur side foot,number 3 in the pic,i think it's called instep. (well i call them placing because you're basically guiding the ball to where u wanted it to be) or with ur the part of the foot where in the pic stated number 4,metatarsus.




Anyway,so when i got to know about football,eventually i watch them.I been to our very own local match Pahang vs Sarawak (if i'm not mistaken) ,i watched Man Utd and became their "fan" for a short period.Why u ask?There was this football phenomenon, David Beckham. Lol.I bought the tape of them winning 96/97 season.Then it changed me forever(trying to be dramatic).That's when i saw this young guy who made his debut for Liverpool against Wimbledon in May 1997, coming on as a substitute and scoring a goal. I was awed by his performance and wondered,he shared the similiar trades like i do.Small and fast(self claim hahaha).His name is Michael James Owen.He was 17 when he scored that goal against Wimbledon.

He was 18 and he scored the wonder goal against Argentina World Cup 1998.

"...neatly controlled a pass in the centre circle, raced past the first Argentinian defender and turned a second on the edge of the box before finishing with an angled drive into the top corner of the net. Probably the best goal ever scored for England." That was how the Sun described that goal.Even got nominated for the best goal ever scored in the history with the likes of Roberto Carlos,Pele,George Weah,David Beckham (that goal against wimbledon back in 96/97),Maradona and Lionel Messi (both beat 5 players before scoring).

If you watch the games and closely observe,you'll see that English Premier League is a physically demanding.But yet Owen is 173cm with roughly 75kg. Did that stats cast doubt?Well, he scored 118goals in 216 matches.Not many could top that,especially English players.Year 2001 was the best year for him,as he and Liverpool won treble, UEFA cup,Carling cup and the FA cup.Further adding the list,individual honours like Ballon d'Or,also known as Best European Player.Just to make the award even sweeter,he won with likes of Raul,Totti,Beckham,Veron,Figo,Shevchenko and Henry just to name a few in the list.Well i ain't done yet,since it's my idol i'm talking about now.




Personally,Owen is not the most loyal player in the world.He craved for success.He left the club that made him famous for Real Madrid.As expected,he only lasted a season there.Well because Raul is basically untouchable in start starting 11.He played 35 matches(only started 15 of them) and scored 13 goals.

Owen at a training camp with Real Madrid.

Even more frustrating is that,despite having the best scoring ratio compared to that bull look alike Rooney and Defoe/Crouch/whoever that Fabio Capello named to partner the bull,Owen is always over-looked. 89 matches 40 goals when Owen in a England shirt.Almost every 2 matches,he will most probably score one.Not to mention,he's the 4th highest goal scoring player for his country.10 more goals,he'll surpass the great Sir Bobby Charlton.

On to the next phase.Newcastle.They broke their record fee,saving Owen from Real Madrid for £16 million erm some say 17. He scored his goal for Newcastle during his only 2nd appearance against Blackburn which ended 3-0,1st win for Newcastle.

Putting his name on Newcastle's book.

He then scored his first hat-trick for Newcastle,what described as perfect hat-trick,each with left foot,right foot and head.Injuries taking turns on him which made him good for nothing.His 1st season he only played 11 matches scoring 7,imagine if he played 38 matches.Sigh.

Couple of years gone,which bring us to this year,where Owen's contract has expired and Newcastle is officially relegated from top flight football.Owen is already on his way,and it appeared as if only Stoke City and Hull City were the ones willing to offer Owen a contract.Then came the club all liverpool fan hate as much as they hate Everton,Manchester United.

You just dont join Manchester United when u were a Liverpool player.At the same time,i hope the best for him.Score more than Rooney and prove to Capello that Rooney is really a one hit wonder.And yet carry the curse with you along.When he left Liverpool,they won the champions league.When he left Real Madrid,they won the Spanish League.Hehe..Join Man Utd and they'll win nothing this year,not with Valencia as the replacement for C.Ronaldo.

It still hurts whenever i see this photo.

Well,as a Liverpool fan,is hard for me to see he is now a Man Utd player.As a fan of his,i hope this move he made will bring him back to England squad.I want to see him surpass Bobby Charlton's all time goal scoring record.Just 10 more goals would do.He's 29 .There is still time.